Have some faith, you're incredible.

Ya know how in the Wizard of Oz they all had their minds set on this epic journey? In the end they'd get to talk to and stand before the spectacular, mighty, and powerful wizard. Nothing could stop them from getting there! Nothing could prevent them from finishing, from reaching their goal, from succeeding. The entire time.. through every complication of the road, the end reward kept them going. Determination & motivation.. inspiring isn't it? Sigh, it's so admirable. But yet, in the end.. this all high and mighty, spectacular wizard turned out to be nothing more than an ordinary man.
I've been so afraid, for SO long..about so many things. Afraid that in the end, I'll find out that my phenomenon was nothing more then my imagination. Petrified that everything is an unreachable hallucination. I guess, when you put all your hopes, dreams, or anything completely in someone or something else.. there's no guarantee of getting all that you expect. Expectations largely determine our perceptions of life. Unless we're constantly satisfied we tend to think life is "against us." Believing that this world should cater to our ever need..we're only setting ourselves up to be disappointed. Money, marital status, or possessions..only lead to temporary fulfillment, if that. Relying on any other human being to be our constant, and single source of contentment or happiness is an impossible standard to upkeep.. no matter how wonderful the person may be.
In the end we need to stand up for ourselves. We need to love who we are. We need to not allow what we do, or what we want to define us. Each person in this world can be destined for greatness, if that's what they strive for. We create our own destiny. No limitations. Its unfair to ask another to love you before loving yourself. Selfishness is no way to start any type of relationship. We all have our purposes. We're all of importance. You can waste your time wining about what you don't have, about all that's "against you".. or you can go out and do something about it. Dreams don't have to stay dreams. No matter what kind of mistakes we make, no matter how selfishly we may act, no matter how much wreckage we leave in our path.. our futures are never hopeless. WE are NEVER hopeless. God is always present & we all hold a position in his heart as unique, unrepeatable expressions of his love=]
--Angelica Ruth.