One is to lose your heart's desire.
The other is to gain it.
Gah, to say things have been tough lately would be an understatement. Excruciating is the only word i can seem to think of. Physically, emotionally, and mentally. At least spiritually i seem to be on the right path. Which i guess should be the most important. Knowing that God is here, and that he proves himself time and time again. Always when you least expect it and it matters most. I'm unsure of about 90% of my life right now, but i'm confident in God. & that has never happened before. I won't take off this cross, i wont lose my way any more than i've already strayed.
I've never been much for religion..but there must be a reason you keep saving me. I'm here for a reason. I saw everyone I love in this world stand by me as I faded away, and in their love I survived. I am no one with out my family, my true friends, and my faith. They're my backbone. Some people think if you're not your own strength that you're weak. I don't see it as weak, I see it as loved. Love is a hell of a lot better than lonesome. Right about now i'm not too sure about a loooot of things, but I AM sure that i'm an incredibly blessed girl. You haven't the slightest of idea. Happily ever after, it's what they want us to believe. That logic is flawed, it's not reality. The deaths, the tears, the fears, the falls..Through it all we still go on. The broken hearts, the cheating friends, the pain that never seems to end.. Just remember that the aching can't last much longer & in the end it'll only leave you stronger.
We all have our own worlds. I know i have mine, and maybe it's a lot like your world. Maybe it's nothing like it. But, if you look closely you might see someone like you. Someone trying to find their way; someone trying to find their place; someone trying to find their self. Sometimes it’s easy to feel like you’re the only one in the world who's struggling, who’s frustrated, or unsatisfied at barely getting by. But, that feeling is a lie and if you just hold on; just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find the way and make it all okay. We all need a little help sometimes, someone or something to help us hear the music in the world. To remind us that it won’t always be this way, eventually...we'll be okay.
I'm trying to stay positive, i'm trying to focus on the good. Even if it seems like there's not much left.. it's easy to feel abandoned when you know you never actually will be. I'll never be alone. Ever. &That's the truth. I may have some bad, difficult, and painful experiences as i journey through my life, my world..but those experiences were given to me to help me progress.
Every person has their cross to carry. & as I struggle to keep mine up I can look behind me and see the proof that the hardest of times make you the strongest. I can look beside me and see the people in this world who help me breathe, who help me survive, who love me unconditionally. & I can look in front of me, look forward and see a future that is never hopeless.
I see, I know, I believe that this too shall pass.
